Living in Denial
As you could understand my life as I knew it was changing. Everything was changing. My family, my finances, my cars, and even my friends. I had many friends through the year and many groups. I have traveled across the nation and across the world with them. We would usually fly first class and stay in the best hotels. Money was really no object.
It was not uncommon for me to come home from work and at the drop of a hat jump in the car and go to Manhattan for a night, more specifically, Little Italy. Drop several hundred dollars in an evening and not bat an eye. Dinner at Angelo’s – several bottles of wine, usually a nice penne ala vodka for me and always a stop at Ferrara’s for a cannoli or three. Life was good but when Karen and I started having financial trouble, more specifically losing everything I just couldn’t afford to make a trip and now with 2/3 kids it included a babysitter. I tried to make excuses like, my kids need me to snuggle them to bed or last-minute my babysitter cancelled. I was embarrassed. I couldn’t tell these guys that I was broke and couldn’t afford to run with them anymore.
Looking back on it one of the main reasons we fell so hard was my unwillingness to change and to continue trying to keep up with the Jones. If I had just looked at my situation and sold my house and my cars as soon as I my expenses were greater than my income Karen and I would have had probably had about a year of issues and then climbed out much faster.
I want to make something very clear; because I was sailing down a river in Egypt I made my situation so much worse. If I had truly and honestly looked at our situation and acted accordingly we would have lived a very different life the past few years, one that would have been much easier.